Choose happy
If you follow me on twitter you might be able to tell that I've been having "one of those" weeks. I make a conscious effort not to complain a lot, but sometimes when things feel overwhelming I do find that listing out what's wrong makes everything seem more manageable. While I may be tired and stressed, I also know I'm lucky that my problems aren't worse and I am thankful for that.
I'm exhausted. I've posted on my blog about my experience with lupus and sometimes I just need to listen to my body and slow down. Unfortunately the world doesn't stop just because I'm tired or don't feel well, so balancing rest with work and home life can be difficult. I'm blessed that I have an understanding job and an incredible, supportive husband I can rely on.
We've had some unexpected expenses recently. While this is never fun, I'm so happy that I've used this last year to get my spending under control and that I've been fairly successful when it comes to sticking to a budget and saving. I'm also thankful that although we also found out my car needs some repairs, the cost isn't astronomical.
I colored my own hair...and I'm less than thrilled with the results. I used to color my own hair back in college when I went red {sorry, no pictures}. When I decided to return to blonde I went to a stylist and she has done my cuts and highlights ever since. Unfortunately I moved, then she moved so it's difficult for us to get together and I'd kind of given up on my highlights. My roots weren't horrible, but they were noticeable so when I had the opportunity to try out a new hair color I thought, why not? Unfortunately the difference between the length of my hair and the regrowth at my roots is enough that the color isn't uniform. My roots are sort of a strawberry blonde while the rest of my hair is pretty much the same color as when I started. My husband swears it's hardly noticeable and no one I've encountered today has mentioned it {or stared at my head for an awkward amount of time}, so I'm inclined to think that he's telling the truth. Still, I notice it and given the aforementioned unexpected expenses I'm not sure when I'll be able to get it fixed professionally.
I got very little response on my last giveaway. I'm not concerned about page views, but I was disappointed that there were only 10 entries in the last giveaway I did because I felt like I let-down the fantastic company that was kind enough to contribute the prize. I am happy that one of my favorite bloggers won the giveaway, and know that her pup will enjoy her toy.
I don't know what I want to be when I "grow up." I'm feeling a lot of confusion, frustration, envy and various other feelings that I can't put into words, which causes more frustration. I feel so fortunate to have the job that I have and I love it, but at the same time I don't feel like it's my calling.
Are you fortunate enough to know what you want to do, and if so, are you able to do what you love as a career?
If not, how do you deal with the disappointment and frustration that comes along with that?
15 comments:
Hugs friend! So sorry that you aren't having a great week. Hugs!
I'm sorry you're having a bad week... when it rains it pours :/ Just try and battle one thing at a time; I've learned that dying my own hair just turns out badly every time and that is one thing I will make sure I have time and money to have it done professionally. I've been there, so I know how you feel...
Chin up! Sending hugs!
Samantha
Thanks for your encouragement, Samantha. I know this will pass, and I know I'm lucky that my hair could be A LOT worse-- I will definitely return to getting it professionally done!
Aww Allie, I hope this week turns around for you quickly and you start to feel better! I took a lot of time searching for what I wanted to do "when I grow up" and tried a lot of different things and I definitely understand about having a job that is not your calling. I stumbled into my current career choice and after 5 long years of school can't wait to be done and start my career for real. But is it my calling? I'm not sure. Some days it is, and others it's not. But I don't think that what you do for work has to be your calling, as long as you are still doing things outside of work that are. If that makes sense?
Hang in there girl! Life can be crazy stressful but like you said you have a gret support system so I'm sure you will be just fine! If ya wanna grab lunch sometime or dinner lemme know!
I have a bachelor's degree in criminal justice and criminology - I've always dreamed of being a probation officer. I don't have a job using my degree (and never have) and don't foresee it in my near future. It bothers me but not as much as it used to. After getting sick... I realized money is more important. It really is. Being financially stable is the most important thing to me.
I still hope to be a probation officer one day but don't see it being anytime soon.
If you have the means to chase your dream though... do it! :)
Aw I'm sorry you're having a blah week. :( Hang in there, love, it will get better!
And I absolutely agree, I don't know what I want to be either... I have a great boss, and a flexible job that really fits my lifestyle right now with the kids, etc. But is it something I truly love and feel fulfilled doing? Not really. But then again, being a fed. employee, with the looming threat of furloughs/gov't shutdown, etc, I guess I should be grateful to have a job at all!!! :)
Hang in there, we're just about halfway through the week.
I've been reading a book about the Law of Attraction and I just read about finding what you want to do career wise and how to get there and I think this might be helpful for you. It said to write down all the things you love to do and things that make you feel overwhelmed with joy. It'll help you figure out what you should be doing.
I hope that helps.
I like what I do, but I know I don't want to do it forever. It's a shame seeing as how I put a lot of work into it! Ideally, I would be a group fitness instructor part time and a mom full time. However, we're not at the point in our lives yet. So, I've enjoyed my job the last few years...but I couldn't do it forever. What do you THINK you want to do?
I would've entered your giveaway, but I don't have a pet!
Hang in there, dear. Things will get better. Spring is right around the corner!
I'm sorry about your week! I wish I could have entered your giveaway, but not having a dog anywhere in my immediate family, I didn't want to take away from someone who does. I also hope you're feeling better soon. I know it's so easy to say, but rest really does do the body wonders.
As for a career, I've been extremely fortunate to find that I love the non-profit sector, specifically with regard to youth development. I like feeling like I'm working for a purpose, and I know you will find your purpose soon :)
Sending you a big hug! I totally know how you feel. I have been having one of these weeks for about 2 months now. I keep blaming the weather...I am more of a summer girl, and swear I have the winter blues right now. Anyway, I totally know how you feel about not knowing what you want to be when you grow up. I actually always dreamed of working in an ad agency, and then I finally landed that job. Although I do like my job, there are times when I think...can I do this forever? Do I want to? Oh I wish I did that job. So you are not alone, although I don't know really how to solve that issue :) Hope your week gets better! We are almost halfway there!!
First, I sent you an invite to this thing called Happify I have been participating in. It's actually really awesome and kind of goes along with this post. It's great at helping you focus on what's not making you happy and seeing how you can change it. I hope you like it! You're my first person I've sent an invite too.
And disappointment is high in my life too. Dye your hair again! Just do an all over color. I never touch up my roots, I just completely re dye. I also am far too cheap to get it done professionally though :D And unepcted expenses are the worst! And on the giveaway - try using Rafflecopter to make entries a bit easier and be sure to spread the word about it as much as possible! Still, I'm excited to have one - Raynor's been mad at me since we put her in a kennel while we were in Vegas. She needs a treat!
In so sorry you are having a rough week:/ I too don't know what to do when I grow up. It's hard because everyone says it will just happen, but it has not yet. Waiting is so frustrating/exhausting. When I get upset my husband always reminds me in we're I am for a reason. God would not have made it happen if that was not true.
Sometimes that helps, other times it doesn't.
Your perspective is beautiful, and I think that's the best way to deal with the frustration. I can sympathize, and know I feel just like you do.
Keep your chin up! I know it will get better:)
Alix
Bless your heart. You're such a sweet girl. We all have off weeks! Don't you fret about it. Listen- you're young. Hardly any of us know what we want to do "when we grow up" at this age. I can't think of one friend who knows their true career path that they are passionate about and will be forever... It's a very difficult thing to discover. Goodness knows I'm on my second post-graduate degree and I still have no clue where I see myself in five years. All we can do is focus on our passions and the things that bring us joy and try to incorporate those things into our lives, working our way through the seemingly meaningless and trivial jobs until we find what makes us truly ignite. I'd be willing to bet that you'll figure it out as soon as you stop searching for it!
Sending you lots and lots of hugs friend. I know what you mean, yesterday was a complete rollercoaster for me. I know for sure what I'm doing right now isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life and it's so frustrating seeing everyone else figure it out. When it comes to hair, just dye it all! I'm sure it looks fine but I know what it's like to just KNOW within ourselves that something is not right. I'm sorry about the giveaway, I know stuff like that matters to us bloggers. I left a comment but didn't enter it because technically "my" dogs aren't mine and I thought other dog lovers deserved it more! I think we can only do the best we can and hope that it's enough! <3
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